Tomorrow I am going on my first ever solo trip. First to Copenhagen, then to Krakow in Poland. I’m a little anxious. Not because I’m going alone but because I fear my plane crashing and dying before I meet you. I can’t. I just can’t. I need you in my life. My soul needs you. And I will not allow death to claim me before I have you. I know God won’t let that happen. He gave me the vision of you for a reason. This purpose. The 2222 days. It was no accident that I was born with this fire, this love inside me.
But while I wait for tomorrow, I have started improving the way I look for you. I’m testing out different tans, getting rid of the stubble that has become a part of me over years of suffering. But suffering is not who I am. I am light. And so I will turn into a being full of light both above and below the surface. I think I am getting closer every single day. Better and better. In every single way. When we meet I will be far beyond what I am now. And it’s all for you. You deserve the very best I can give. I have prayed for God’s guidance in becoming the perfect husband for you. And I will. With His help.
This will be THE RESURRECTION OF MR. LADEGAARD. MY MONTH OF BECOMING. THE START OF MY MOMENT.
THE START OF OUR MOMENT.
THE START OF OUR ETERNAL LOVE.
Forever.
And I believe in that wholeheartedly. Because I believe in you. I believe you exist. I believe you are meant to be mine. Just like I’m meant to be yours. We were made for each other. My passion is given to me by God because it is meant to be the thing you need, and you will also have something that God knows I need. And together we will be perfect. And perfection is worth waiting for. You are worth waiting for.
Sleep tight tonight, and sweet dreams, my love.
Your future husband,
Mr. Ladegaard
(This was the view from outside my apartment this morning. The picture doesn’t quite capture the beauty of the colors, but I just wanted you to see what is going to be our vacation home someday. My dream is to keep this apartment as our vacation home whenever we visit Denmark. Our kids need to know their roots. That’s very important to me. And it’s a beautiful view, isn’t it?)
(Oh, and I mentioned that I broke my long-suffered block that had prevented me from working on developing the video game that will make the life I want for us possible. So everything is looking up. And I was only able to do it because I believe in our future so much.)
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